I suspect only the ex-godfearing folk have a god-shaped gap. They grew up with a god-shaped virtual organ, and when it was taken away it left a virtual hole. Which includes me; and in mine I have put -
- a general sense of spirituality, and a kind of playful polytheism for any reasonable belief, without seriously believing in any of them.
- 6th senses and a connection to the Mendi which nearly makes me my own god. But I'm never quite whether I made that bit up, or whether I really do have 'special' senses ;). Sadly, I think it runs in the family. My dad, for a number of years, believed he had a personal one-to-one connection with his god, and insisted that I believed in his god aswell.
- that church stuff probably helped to create a community-spirit-shaped gap aswell, with all that singing and listening to sermons and trying to act for the greater good; and there I have a void which I partially fill right here, and other places like this one. But in RL it is still a hole.
- creative talents like music, writing, poetry, art, architecture, design, inventions, etc; some of which directly lift up society; and others of which I hope one day to make good use of, to leave a positive mark on this terrible little world. I generally aim for that in everything I do, although that is without achieving much in the meantime. But if I get inspired, look out world.
ok, I admit it, I'm not Bad. Being Bad was a phase, and I wasn't Bad even then. I'm a disenchanted but hopeful son of a preacher man, with a god-shaped hole and a sense of adventure. Enter the bicycle, that zen-like appliance which, amongst other things, gives me direct contact with the many gods of Nature*, the ether in my hair, and a chance to reach a higher state of one-ness a few times a week :)
* Due homage to the p* faeries, who are without a doubt the mightiest of them all.
