I'm back. This is the last thing I expected, even though I've boomeranged numerous times. I don't trust the moderation; I strongly disagree with some of the regulars concerning a subject I feel passionate about; and I half expect this post to be disappeared.
[0] But if there's one thing I am – besides a self-indulgent, self-reverential, sophisticated troll who's also a pseudo intellectual and control freak [
source[1]] – it's a try try again kind of guy.
I've been labouring for a long time now to be content in my own little
quite well populated world, but it's not enough. I crave the challenge of getting along with people, even if it means ignoring half of them,
[2] being ignored by the other half,
[3] and despised by the rest.
[4] I crave in particular the unique and painfully exquisite challenge of this place. At least for now. I may wake up (my hours are rather strange) and look back on this post with horror, but that's part of the fun.
What triggered this was
a quote from Yacf on the Cycling UK forum. I was amused by the fact that a serious decision I made was heavily influenced by something posted here,

which in an extremely roundabout way was thanks to me.
[5] This set in motion a chain reaction of metaphors leading to the precipice that is this post.
Ultimately what brought me back was words.
[6] The arrangement of them in pleasing ways is always an attraction, and you have some fine pleasing word arrangers in residence, along with a permissions profile that hits the spot. So here I am. Wish me luck
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0. Too far too soon?
1. Recitation has been edited for brevity
2. I've actually never put anybody on ignore
3. A mixed blessing
4. Here I'm using the highly sophisticated literary device of exaggeration
5. Ah, self-reverential
6. And the fact that I was banned from CycleChat, which also has its attractions